Most of my posts are spontaneous, I just build on a thought, experience, and lesson learned.
This one might not mean anything to you now, but you must pause for a moment and savour the lesson because we might all be wired differently, but we are a piece of the same thing.
Backstory
Some years back, one of those regular slow evenings. I sat with my mum, sister, and our neighbour who happens to be my dear friend. We started having an intense argument about something I cannot vividly remember all through, except for the fact that it was about a boy, and I kept screaming “I no go fit do am!”. It was about morality and it was something I haven't even come to face with, so I had zero experience but I kept talking my sister down with those words.
Ladies and gentlemen, it was still in the same year, just a couple of months after, I was faced with that rock and your sister came falling effortlessly. Worse was the fact that I could remember that day, my mannerism, and my sister's calm argument. I couldn’t face her because every stare brought back my words in loud terms “NO, I NO GO FIT DO AM”
After that experience, I learned never to be so forward to bluntly say how you would react about something you haven't experienced. I learned a big lesson from my experience. Over time, things have happened in my life that may come off as normal, but they taunt me. I’m sure nobody still thinks they’ll become better without a few, say a couple of rigorous tosses from life itself.
Why am I saying this?
I've caught myself a couple of times asking God why he allows so many bad things to happen to me being that I’m a good person. Not in terms of losses, but rather, been placed in a situation where I end up making bad decisions because I’m a benevolent person.
The truth is, bad things happen to bad people of course but bad things also happen to good people. To open their eyes to certain things, even be an answer to some prayers. Recently when I caught myself feeling bad about another wrong decision, I heard in my spirit “this was to help you make a more serious decision” more like I needed to experience this failure to help me make a better lifelong decision. Cliche right?
I am saying to you today, that it is time to stop beating yourself about a wrong decision you made that still leaves you feeling sour.
One of those days I made a post about my prayer for wisdom, and all the blows I have endured as a result of that prayer. This is to say that God gives you work to do as an answer to your prayer so expect the worse. Who knew if Job in the bible prayed for endurance before his experience?
See whatever has happened as a window that reveals greater things. Leave your past where they are meant to be, pick up lessons and focus on making the present better. Jesus promised us a future he fought and conquered death for, cleanse our past sins, and gave us the grace to follow through each day. You can be better. It will all make sense in the end. I used to think that the only sins God forgave were the ones before we gained salvation. However, there's more light to that story. After salvation, every time we come to God's presence with boldness even with mud all over us, he takes his time to wash us again. We are continuously cleansed, purified, and refined just so we can make TODAY better. Apostle Paul gives insight to this in Philippians 3:12-13.
God is looking forward to seeing you pick up your cross DAILY. That's where the real struggle lies. He knows you would be in the spot you are now, but He's cheering the loudest just so you are motivated to go again. LET'S GO AGAIN TODAY.
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